I have been retired since April. I have no complaints but a few lingering doubts and some unfulfilled aspirations. I am quite adept at filling my days with activity I feel good about and plenty of fitness and writing goals to work toward.

Still, the lack of structure makes me wonder if something is missing at times.

I cannot help but marvel at the amount of energy I used to expend on what I now refer to as involuntary work related socializing. I hoard that extroversion energy a little more jealously and find I need some down time after socializing now.

As I contend I am about 65% extrovert, I find myself asking how much socializing I did to please others over myself and questioniing which friendships warrent continued investment.

While I miss some people and social aspects I do not miss the working world at all. I never really identified with my job or employer. I am surprised how quickly I forgot ex-coworkers' names.

More money would always be nice but I'm still detoxifying from being a thirty five year employee. If I do venture back into working for income, it will be on a self employed basis and for fun as much as money.

My unfulfilled vocational aspirations are largely in writing and I feel like I am progressing with those.

I really like not being rushed to have to be anywhere and feel more at peace defining my existence in being as opposed to doing.